Happy Halloween!

Posted: October 31st, 2013 | Author: | Filed under: Ramblings | No Comments »


Back to blogging…

Posted: July 20th, 2013 | Author: | Filed under: Ramblings | 1 Comment »

Everything has been such a whirlwind lately. I can’t believe it’s already the middle of summer. This is officially the best summer ever, but also it’s been going by so quickly! I feel so much change happening right now. It’s amazing. The summer has been food, beaches, brunches, food, friends, drinks, food, pools, flowers, sitting on the roof deck, stargazing, people watching, music, so many outings, so many beach trips, so much food!

Some snapshots…

Peanut Butter cake with chocolate frosting

Farmer's market haul

Tortilla soup and rainbow chard

Lighthouse

Goodbye, Boston!

Tonight is all about relaxing with a silly movie, just me and the cats. It’s a weekend that is full of promise, another whirlwind weekend of friends, hot evenings full of laughter, good food and good company. I’m so happy and tired from the summer, but so looking forward to the upcoming weeks.

Relaxing

I’m going to make a love list because that’s what everyone does, right?

Today I love… Conversations full of amazement .:. Snuggling with my kitties! .:. Making amazing plans with amazing people .:. Coconut oil for my hair-dye-fried hair! .:. Fresh flowers .:. New shorts and flowy shirts .:. Beach trips .:. Treating myself to new things, because I totally deserve it .:. My Thai basil plant, totally flourishing in this insane heat .:. Speaking of insane heat: air conditioning! .:. My tomato plant, finally sprouting one little tomato .:. Amazing people who help you grow


Beautiful Saturday!

Posted: May 4th, 2013 | Author: | Filed under: Adventures, Fashion, Ramblings | 2 Comments »

I love spring so much. Today is Somerville Open Studios and I’m meeting a friend to check out another friend’s galleries. It’s in the 50s today and is just so sunny and beautiful outside that I can’t even imagine it. This morning I took a big stack of books back to the library and breathed in some fresh, spring air, and little flower petals were everywhere and I felt like I was in a movie. Spring used to be one of those seasons that I always would ignore, but it’s becoming my favorite season!

Found a friend!

Springtime!

Today I’m wearing a very simple outfit for a very simple and good day (sorry about my messy bedroom!).

Outfit picture!

Shoes: Sparkly ballet flats, Target
Rolled navy blue skinny jeans: Thrifted
White and gray striped tank top: Thrifted
Black cardigan: Thrifted

And finally here’s a bonus blurry picture of my shallow bay window in my living room right now. I love my yellow smoking chairs – bought them off Craigslist from a VERY nice man who offered to drive me and them home, and also invited me to a party he was having. I declined, and instead took them on the subway (yes, I sat in them until I reached my stop). They’re so cheery!

Living room on a sunny spring day


On Happiness

Posted: March 30th, 2013 | Author: | Filed under: Ramblings | No Comments »

Just when I thought I was done growing for awhile, I realized I still am, just in a subtler and more fiercely intense but quiet way. I’ve been thinking about happiness, especially in regards to my relationships with other people. This is kind of rambly but here’s what I think I’ve decided:

Happy people aren’t happy ALL the time.

The thing is, you can’t be. Nobody can be. I think we sort of have gotten into this trap of “positive thinking” where we think that we can be always happy as long as we just “try hard enough.” That sets everybody up for failure and pressure about how you “should” feel. You are ALLOWED to be sad/upset/angry/frustrated/helpless/whatever. My therapist told me a story about a friend who visited Tibet to work in a monastery for awhile. This friend encountered the happiest, most peaceful person he had ever met, an old monk who lived there. When the friend had asked the monk what made him so happy all the time, the monk replied, “I looked deep within me, and discovered my inner pain, and suffering, and fear, and I realized none of it ever mattered in the long run.”

Happy people don’t beat themselves up over sadfeels. Instead, they know truly and deeply that their sadfeels WILL go away and they will be happy again. So their sadfeels don’t bother them nearly as much as they bother the rest of us.

The thing is, when you’re in the thick of it, you can start to feel a sense of hopelessness or despair about your negative feelings, a kind of “I have to solve this or I will NEVER feel better.” But I think truly happy people don’t ever get to that stage. They get sad, they get angry, but in all of that, they know the feelings will pass, so they don’t ever get to the despair stage. I don’t think negative feelings are insidious, but that despair definitely is.

You CAN forgive someone and choose to forget it without allowing people to bully you.

I think we have this fear that if we let things go, we’ll give into bullying behavior and allow ourselves to be a doormat or abused. I think this fear crosses every single demographic line. It’s a human fear, pure and simple, beyond any kind of socialization. We do not want to be hurt, and opening ourselves up to our friends and family opens us up to that hurt. It’s a choice to make ourselves vulnerable when we love people. And deep inside of the fear of being bullied is the fear that the people we love will not love us back in the same way.

The only way you can solve this is by unconditionally loving the people you choose to love, pure and simple.

The question I had struggled with was “how do I forgive without opening myself to hurtful behavior?” The answer is you can’t. You CAN set your boundaries through things like distance. You can understand the behavior when you understand the fear. You can choose to walk away. But you can also choose to forgive. Remember: It feels better for YOU to forgive – it’s not “giving in.”

You can practice ANYTHING to get good at it.

Seriously. Letting go, loving, being happy, anything. Nobody’s bad enough at these things that they can never learn to do it.

All the “rationalization” and “logic” in the world doesn’t change your feelings sometimes.

And that’s okay. Sometimes you just gotta separate your brain from your feelings. But it’s important to realize that because trying to “figure out your feelings” can make things a LOT worse. Stop rationalizing it and let yourself feel it.


That day when …

Posted: March 27th, 2013 | Author: | Filed under: Ramblings | No Comments »

When you just got back from visiting your family and you’d been exhausted and have had a vague mini-migraine for two solid days and you had barely gotten sleep and your to-do list is getting to the point where it’s utterly absurd and they’re all huge items like “take the car in for a check-up” and “do taxes” and doing one of them takes half a week just to get done because of all the other stuff you have to do …

… That day when you actually wake up in the morning on time and you have your coffee and you actually feel pretty good and you clean up the cat toys off the floor and manage to remember to charge some batteries for later and have lunch to take to work for once and you realize you might actually have the energy to maybe go grocery shopping or buy some cat food.

Yep, that’s the day that you pat yourself on the back.


To new beginnings!

Posted: November 24th, 2012 | Author: | Filed under: Ramblings | 2 Comments »

Wiped all the posts – time to start over!